At this point of time, I'm writing this post at campus. It's still 10am in the morning, and I've got no place to go, but the virtual world.

I cant believe it. But it seems like it was meant to happen. I woke up this morning pretty fast, about 3.30 am. The computer was in stand by mode, so I sign in to the MSN messenger and found Yumma online. We started to talk, and it was so much fun. He was so sweet, but still cant really trust everything he said. He asked me to remember our first meeting at p40 bus. I said that I remember, and that it was still fresh on my mind. He said the same thing. He said that he was so happy at that time, but the day after that, I'm already with Jedi. hiks hiks ... Such a cruel world! hahaha

[music starts playing: January // Glenn]

so what's the connection between the story and the song? Nothing really. We both think that we had enough with our tiredness. We both feel that getting away to the virtual world releases everything that is so real in the world. Including the pain and all. At least on that particular time, we both know that in a matter of hours, we'll be coming back to the ol' cruel reality of life, with the loneliness, and feeling of lost.

he was kinda flirting me around and so do I. Actually, we both realized it, and just keep on doing it for fun. I felt so special for a couple of hours, and I guess so does he. At least he told me that he was having a good time chatting with me. But then again, I felt stupid.

we talked until 5am. It stopped when both of our mom told us to stop! [giggle]. So much for a coincidence ;) he wants to see me today, and told me to just skip my classes, but when I told him to hang out tomorrow, he said ok. I wonder if he's really saying what he said.. OK! [??] anyhoo... Guess I'll try to give him a call, just to make sure. Or just wish that I'll see him online tonight.. Or tomorrow morning?? [giggle]

don't know what to feel. Better consult myself with tista. Somehow I prayed that nothing gonna hurt me anymore. At least not as painful as the last time.

miss marisa so much! btw, I wonder why I cant access my own blog from this place? I cant even view my own site??!!


I just wanna know what it feels like to be loved again ...